Lost
Alone
Confused
The darkness was creeping in and just when I thought it couldn't get worse, it did. Maybe I'm tired of trying and giving up is the relief I need.
People say darkness is the absence of light, but what do you call not even knowing what light is. Making you hold on to the tinniest similitude of light you can find...a feeling I remember all too well.
I remember grappling on endlessly in the darkness, trying to hold on to something. Then I found it, a treasure I swore to protect, then it turned out to be a disaster. I thought I had found light, but I got plunged further into the darkness.
Trust me, I've seen my hopes and dreams come crashing down before my face, fizzling out into nothingness. Trying so hard to keep going and hitting a roadblock at each turn.
The point is, I've sensed darkness in more ways than I have ever imagined. Times when I became complacent to that feeling of helplessness and the darkness became my companion.
And that's how I feel right now.
But no matter how dark the night is,
the sun always rises the next day.
Ascending above the horizon in its glory.
to give light to all below
In situations were giving up felt like the best option, this had always been the problem, the freaking problem... I really can't. I’ve tried,I honestly have, however, I’ve come to realize that's giving up isn't just what I stand for, it isn't who I am.
It may be the next morning, it maybe the next month, it maybe the next year but I'd always rise again. For, at the dawn of the morning I know a new day has come. Another chance to make things right, a new chance to try again - even harder and work on that idea, build that dream and another chance to get closer to God.
Like the Bible says in "Ps.30:5 weeping may endure for a night, But joy comes in the morning." So, if you're ever feeling defeated, rise up, look outside. The sun rose again, so should you.
It's been a long day; I should get some rest now and try again tomorrow.
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